Been stuck in the pits of depression for quite a while already, and its starting to tire me out... Today was depressed the whole day... I kept on feeling like sleeping and wasting my time away... Then in the evening went out. My aunty who opens a facial shop wanted to do facial on me so I just went for fun... But it sure was painful. She said my skin condition is not too good so must go more regularly (i think she also wants to earn more money). But i think will try to go facial from now on... I also want to be more pretty... Haha!!!
But i feel its tiring to feel depressed all the time... Life seems so boring when u are depressed... Been thinking, talking to alot of my friends.... I am certainly blessed to have many friends and family to give me support...
I told my mom , recently i been in a very bad mood cause i seem to have lost motivation to work or in anything... She told me maybe its because i have drifted further away from god so i am going thru a spiritual low... She said she thinks i need to find back my aim in life...just like she found back her aim in life after so many years of being a housewife, now she is happily working and she is enjoying it...
Other people i want to thank is teo and jolene. I think they are the ppl who gave me the most encouragement during this time... Teo for being with me thru every step of the way. Jolene for telling me that if u can't change a situation, change urself. I am after all still someone trying to grow up...
There are other ppl I want to thank especially pertaining to my colleagues is Guan Yi and shirley. Cause we are all from the same batch. At least i am not alone struggling... Jacqueline (SGH) and Long ti - although i got pass rubbish reports to them, they are still so kind to me..., Mylene: she is ever so ready to help me w/o asking anything in return, Narin - for telling me my mistakes (though dun like her tone but i guess i do like her), Ah Buay- for being my kind teacher though sometimes she can be really sarcastic, Sister stella - for flipping thru my changes and helping me do some changes that day when i was struggling with 12 patients, sister hone - for buying me lunch sometimes when i am too busy to go for break , wan ru - for helping me and shirley serve meds when we are both struggling, EN sumarni - for teaching me its important to relax and enjoy ur work and not rush thru ur work... eventually all will be ok if u are calm. And thank our House officer for taking my bloods and being so good natured though recently been a bit mood swing (though I dun suppose he will read this ... haha). There are many other ppl i would like to thank... maybe i might go to them personally to thank .
But overall the most impt thing i learnt and i must remember is that i must thank GOD. I have neglected him all this time... putting him at the corner of my heart. Thats why i felt something missing from my life all this while. I pray to have renewed strength for each new day and for him to take charge of my life... i am like a lamp without oil... so i need oil to keep me burning.
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