Last night was really praying, well actually not really praying. I just prayed that God... ur will be done. If u want me to work today i will work. if u want me to get an off I will go to church... However up to this morning when i woke up still no one called me saying i can take leave today... Only until i WENT TO WORK I realised there was only 3 staff so it was quite impossible that they would ask me to go home. However the whole central only got 7 or 8 patients since alot of them dun want to stay for cny. When my colleague came, she asked me whether I want to go home... I was so happy and after talking to the indian sister she allowed me to go home to celebrate cny. I even gave my sister a great big hug. On the way home I felt as if I was floating on the clouds... I just felt ecstatic!
After coming back home i changed and set of for church... I decided to ride my bike to church since i was really lazy to wait for a bus again... Riding a bicycle is harder than i thought. Or rather I can say my stamina has deproved alot... I pant and pant everytime I am riding up slope. A few times I had to get off my bike and push my bike when i felt tired... Anyways by the time i reached church my hair was like a rag doll and i was sweating like a pig...
I really miss going to church. really miss worship and listening to god's message. Todays message was really meaningful. Its about spreading god's love to family and relatives which is really good for this festive season. No matter what their must be a spirit of gentleness and respect if we want to be a living testimony to others. You dun have to force or insult other religions cause everyone has their own principle but u can start by saying an encouraging word or showing ur concern or praying for someone when they really need it. Even if they are non christian everybody likes to be prayed for . Cause as human beings sometimes we cannot handle stuff ourselves so sometimes we want to beleive their is someone in control. But i strongly believe in the subtle approach.
After service met up with pei lee and we sat and talked for a while... its been a while since i have last seen her. We both have gone thru tough times but we are still able to talk about anything. I told her recently been very down but now i came out of my down period... Cause i prayed to god to give me strength for each new day. Although I am not perfect but i am trying my best.
Recently also been thinking about something. People used to ask me what sort of guy i would like , or what sort of husband i would like to have etc... Its a very common question but i used to think that if i loved someone even if he is a non christian i would not mind. But recently it sort of has been forming in me what i really want... When i am down he will cheer me up, when i feel tired i can lean on him (like a tree), and we will pray together whenever we feel we need to pray. When i stray away he will knock my head and pull me back to god. Cause i realise last time when i strayed away from god i just focused on myself as the centre of the world... and i became so narrow minded... But i want to change. Learning to love myself and others around me...Dunno also whether got such a person for me but i am also not very anxious for one for the time.... but its just two cents of my thoughts.
And I will continue being the happy me... and go on with my life as everyday! Happy Chinese New YeaR to everyone!!!
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