Tuesday, January 30 >Today is my off day again... hehe... so happy and this week my off is today and tomorrow... No concrete plans yet. Tonight going to treat my family to dinner at some peranakan restaurant. Should be quite nice... Tomorrow might be watching movie with jacq lim and eve... We might be watching this chinese show called "Happy Birthday" Not too keen on it but i will just follow along.
Yesterday i was on afternoon shift and i was put in charge of 12 patients... However yesterday was quite peaceful so it was quite ok... Sometimes even 6 patients can make u damn busy... Thank God. He must be blessing me recently.
Sunday, January 28 >Today I am off again and its also a day I am going out with my colleagues. I am still thinkingwhether to just eat and chat at sakae or go k boxing... haha... Anyways recently have been happier. dunno why also... My colleaugues say I will smile more than last time. Which is good. Myabe I am getting better at my work. Slow and steady wins the race.
Thursday, January 25 >Today was an off day after one week of working... This morning teo and me were chatting and we were comparing roster and we found out my roster and hers is exactly the same until her last day this friday... I guess this is fate ba... haha, always putting us together in the same shift and same off day... i will really miss her...
Today I packed up my super messy room... However it was a very superficial spring cleaning, as in it looks neat but if u open up the drawers it is still super messy. i guess that will have to wait until my next off day or when i am free.
Today also decided to go visit my uncle and aunty who live at Hiding Place (drug rehab centre for drug addicts or delinquents). My Uncle owns the place. Last year end he found out he had cancer of the colon. So a surgery was done to remove thetumour from his colon. However the cancer cells spread to his lymph nodes. So they are trying to use chemotherapy and radiation therapy to control and stop the cancer cells from spreading any further. Today he asked me a question by surprise. "Jolyn , do u think I will die?" "i think everyone will have to do eventually one day. Its just a matter of sooner or later. I also can't give u that hope that u will totally recover, neither can i tell u thats incurable. That the weird thing about this illness... its totally unpredictable. But if god chooses u to leave this world sooner , its also a relief. Whatever it is everything is in god's hands, so just take one day at a time...
Thats the thing about life... Something i learnt... Bless my day tomorrow and the day after next.
Wednesday, January 24 >Today is quite a good day at work, though at the beginning of the day was rather stressed by one of my patients cause she was supposed to go for apheresis and I had to give her antibiotics through her phlerisible line. Its actually the first time i have given anything through the pherisible line before so was rather stressed. The tubing is inserted even closer than the cvc or picc and u have to be super aseptic cause there is a very high risk of infection... but never theless i feel I have learn quite alot. But today because of that, I only finished serving my medications at 9.30 am which is pretty late.
However today was quite a happy day in the sense I am working together with staff i like such as Xu Yi, Teo and Liza... Xu Yi really guided me step by step what to do about the pherisible line... Though she was also very busy with her BMT room. I sort of think me and teo make a good pair... we are sort of similar in the sense both of us are very messy ppl... but i really like to work together with her... Its a pity she is leaving soon to go and work in the angio room... As I said all good things come to an end. I guess I feel a bit sad cause recently have gotten closer to her, then suddenly she leaves me like that. Haiz.. but whatever it is I hope she is always happy wherever she goes. Work wun seem the same without her.
Thinking of going out tomorrow but dunno what to do... # posted by Jolyn |
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Friday, January 19 LOVE: Sometimes i beleive in it, sometimes i dun>Sometimes I feel like I would really like to fall madly in love, get married to the one I love, have kids and blah blah. Sometimes I just think whether there is such thing as true love... not the type of superficial love that alot of ppl have nowadays. Like u are pretty or handsome so i will start liking u though its true that pretty ppl will have more admirers. Whenever someone tells me he likes me I sort distance myself away from them. Maybe partly because those ppl who like me are not really those that I like. I seldom have a liking for anybody. But if I do it means I really like that person to the point of confessing. But then hor... I got rejected.
I guess sometimes i question whether there is such thing as true love . Why must ppl get married when in the end it leads to unhappiness or seperation. So i think maybe i might not get married. But the future is hard to fathom.
I guess sometimes I have this fear in my heart... My parents relationship have never been too good and up to now i can't forget ... Cause they are memories deeply engraved in my mind underneath that happy or blur face of mine... haha. From young I would see my parents quarreling and my mother would al ways be unhappy. Once when my father was drunk I saw him use violence on my mother. We used to stay in china cause my father worked there and he got involved in a extra marital affair. My mum got into depression and brought me back to singapore (I am glad she did). During those time, sometimes i felt very unbearable cause she had really bad mood swings so for a while i chose to shut myself off . I became very withdrawn and quiet.But some ppl brought me out of my shell and helped my mother overcome her depression. Now my mother is really strong... Although my parents have patched back, they still have quarrels here and there, although not as bad as last time.
But sometimes I think if ppl get married out of love (its not a forced marriage) and it still end up this way, what is really the problem. Maybe the idea of true love never existed. it only exists in shows where u see all the romatic stuff happening. I beleive in my heart there was a time my mom and dad really liked or loved each other...
Anywasy i think what i am talking about is really complex and has no solution. I cant prove to anyone that love does not exist. I still do beleive it exists. Just that sometimes my views can be pretty negative. I certainly hope everyone will be able to find the meaning of love in the life of theirs... haha # posted by Jolyn |
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Wednesday, January 17 >Today was a rather frustrating day at work... And I cant help feeling irritated with someone though she is my boss... Sometimes feel that our ward management sucks... was thinking of writing it all out but i deleted it and thought to myself, why write all ur complaints out... as if there will be any use... Just learn from the experience... And sometimes we got to live with it... Today also has some misunderstanding with a colleague of mine who is actually quite close to me... err maybe actually not really misunderstanding but sometimes when we are stressed we all react in ways we normally wouln't if we are clear headed... well decided to put it down lor though just now was really quite angry but i als understand lah... everyone was in a difficult position...What to do... this is working life.
Today after work was so tired went back home and been slacking , surfing net, chatting, watching vcds since i came back... recently been watching this show on tv called "The Peak" at 9 pm most of the time if i am at home... Its pretty interesting.
Wednesday, January 3 NEW YEAR>Its the new year already and time of the year to make new year resolutions... haha... i think i will just make it short and sweet soonly put a few that i really want to fulfill...
1. be a more prettier and confident person. 2. Do something nice with my hair, maybe trim or highlight it. 2.5. Buy more nicer clothes 3. Get braces to straighten my crooked teeth. 4. Get a key board and take up keyboard lessons 5. Maybe (but mostly likely not... depends ) take up driving lessons... cause i more interested in key board. 6. Be a more godly person 7. Enjoy myself every day to the fullest and learn from experiences whether happy or sad. 8. Increase my knowlege
~ Me ~
Name; Jolyn Choo
Age: 19 years
Birthday: December 30
School: Nanyang Poly SHS Nursing Year 3
Place of Work: SGH
CCA: NYP TKd, Geo Council, CSC
~ Loves ~
- rainbows
- smiles on ppl's faces
- food!
- surprises!
- letters
- watching stars at night
- lilies
- tv
~ Loathes ~
- cockroaches
- heights
- backstabbers
- boredom (nothing to do)
~ Wishlist ~
- to be a great nurse
- to have a happy and healthy family
- to be contented and be able to enjoy simple pleasures of life
- to see a rainbow
- lots of food everyday
- to save more money to buy clothes
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