Tuesday, December 26 WEDDING PHOTOS Taken on 23/12/06>
BACK TO WORK>Its Christmas Day and I am back to work... I feel an extremely dreading feeling in my heart , not just because of the fact that I have to go to work on Christmas Day but that its the end of my annual leave. But then it was good while it lasted , just that i feel I have not even reached the part when i am sick of my leave and i am back to work again... And I find it very hard to bring the joy of Christmas back to work again.... ARRGH. IT JUST SUCKS TO GO BACK WORK After a long break... Haiz. Haiz Haiz...
Monday, December 25 >Yesterday I went for a cousin's wedding... It was really nice and grand... But after all its a wedding. Wedding takes so much time to prepare but marriage lasts a life time but never theless its a girl's dream to have a nice wedding though its tiring. I dun know abouts boys though. But i rather have a good marriage than a nice wedding though both sounds good... I think marriage is not finding the perfect person, but accepting each other for their imperfections... I wonder will I ever get married. When I think about it now, its seems quite impossible. I dunno why, maybe I am not good enough yet when I hear myself sday that i sorta feel angry with myself. I really would like a nice church wedding, and in the church there are all sorts of flowers such as nice white lilies... Anywasy i think I am dreaming lah. Better stop dreaming and get back to reality... Ok got to help my brother do some spring cleaning... Better go off now # posted by Jolyn |
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Thursday, December 21 >The moist post rainy weather gives my heart and body a achy feel... For my Body i will try to keep myself warm, for my heart i will try to snap myself back to reality...
Today I went to watch "Charlotte's Web"... Its a really nice show, and i recommend it to anyone who wants a nice warm hearted show to watch... U won't really cry but it surely warms the heart... I watched it with my colleagues, Guan Yi, Giam, Jolene and Kong. Initially Michelle was supposed to join in but she was suddenly called back for night shift so she had to give it a miss . So we called almost everyone we could think of then finally we managed to get Kong to come out with us...
Ok i am gonna sleep now... so sleepy!!!
THRIFTY IS A VIRTUE>I think for now I am going to start saving already. Now in this festive season i seem to have to urge to buy things on sale... Must stop myself and start saving. Today i went out to meet Angelina for lunch and we had a greaty chat... We already plan to watch "The Phantom of the Opera " next year along with Verna and Catherine and go shopping before next year chinese new year... All this requires money... Haiz... sucks but living in singapore really requires u to have some money to get about... Ok so from this moneth on wards I am gonna save... as in dun go shopping and eat cheap cheap stuff... but i will still go out with my friends sometimnes, like tomorrow i am going to watch Charlotte's Web... so excited!!!
Wednesday, December 20 SHOPPING SPREE!!!>Today was quite a happy day... though it was raining the whole day... I went shopping with Guan Yi and Shirley... We shopped between Wisma Atria and Taka.... from 2 to 7. In the end i bought a nice top and a short denim skirt, and i also bought the present for my ward party.... haha. there goes my hard earned money, but sometimes its good to give ourselves a treat. Me and shirley are planning to save to buy a pair of levis jeans when our next pay comes out... Yippeee... and maybe learn how to make those beads assessories... Suddenly i am starting to like shopping...
Tomorrow planning to meet angelina for a short lunch during her lunch break... i just want to enjoy my annual leave as much as I can!!!
Tuesday, December 12 TOMORROW>I just came back from ktving with my colleagues... I am happy that in the period of 6 months I have grown rather attached to them, slogging in work together, gosspiping (hehe), ups and downs of slowly maturing to adults and seeing the realities of life and working life etc... Outside work we are there for each other too, to grumble about on the phone after work, to go ktving together, to go shopping together, or simply go out for a nice meal... Thank u colleagues... Though i dunno how long we will be together, but at this moment of my life I am grateful for u all for being there in my life.
Working life sort of brings out the best and worst and me... My good qualities are highlighted to me even more. My negative qualities are highlighted even more too...Sometimes a simple mistake u make can seem like a very big thing and it spreads like wildfire, cause there are always ppl gossiping... In working life, though someppl are ignorant, they act as if they know everything. And when some honest pure soul says they dunno, everyone seems to give the very disapproving look like that was the most stupid thing not to know that thing(which most ppl dunno). I guess ppl like to act smart sometimes...
Sometime i feel everyone is a hypocrite at work. Though there are more serious hypocrites in my work place but i can't deny that i am a hypocrite too... As if I never gossiped behind someone else's back before... Though I try not to do it... i WILL try to do it less often. i promise myself.
On the night when i was doing night shift with Xu Yi, she suddenly asked me a question... what i want to do, do i want to major in oncology nursing... To tell the truth I never thought so far... I have been living for the day or maybe the week soi far, and just wishing that one day when i wake it , it will suddenly hit my head what i want to do in my life... Oncology nursing is something i have not really thought about though I can't deny there is no possibility... Its nice but i dunno. I am just confused about what i want to do with my life. Time will tell... I always beleived that. You will know what u want to do when the time comes... I am after all just a 20 year old girl/lady trying to find what suits me best.
So far i only thought of becoming a midwife... and maybe when i become very senior to go on overseas projects to 3rd world countries like mission trips or humanitarian trips...
In spite of this , i never regretted coming to oncology nursing. It has been one heck of a roller coasdter ride. But now i can fling my hands up when riding the rollercoaster.
And I shall close this entry with a verse I suddenly thought of. I need God in my life... I really do. The past few months have been the most empty period of my life without God... like a empty vaccuum until i feel so terrible miserable inside... On the outside i look very happy... busy with work, going out on off days... catching up with family and friends but i felt empty all the way... I thought i could survive without him but i really need him in my life. I need him to take control of my life to restore my passion, enthusiasm in life to help me touch the lives of others. I need him! I need his wise teachings to guide my life...
Hehe... enough talk. This is the verse I thought off when i was confused about my future...
Matthew 6: 33-34 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each trouble has enough trouble of its own.
Monday, December 11 >I am officially going to pass my 6 months probation period in sgh... Time flies very fast and i feel i have grown a fair deal... mentally.. spiritually maybe weakened though but i promise i will go back to god, just dunno how i will do that though...
The pass 3 days have been night shift for me and yesterday after my last night i rushed for the early morning service. I was so tired I almost slept. But I am happy i did though I could not join them for cell...feels good to be close to god again...
Thursday, December 7 ONCE UPON A DECEMBER>Hey how have u been.. I really have not written in my blog for ages... its december agaIN AND I THINK ABOUT LAST DECEMBER WHEN I WAS STILL A STUDENT... and going for A and E, OT and Gerontology placement... Times really flies without u really knowing it... Recently I find myself more and more settled in my job, so its time to do oither things... though i dun really know where to start to start living a life...
Yesterday I was afternoon shift... And i did a very unique procedure that even my preceptor who worked for 26 years never did before... Its called Intra periotoneal chemotherapy. The patient has a port in the abdominal region and we are suppose to insert a right angle needle into the port to instill 1 litre of warmed up normal saline, then after that we give the patient diuretics (medication to pass urine ), after that we instill the chemo and another solution called Sodium thiosulphate which is to protect the kidneys and the bladder cause the chemo is toxic to the bladder... The chemo mixed in the 1 litre of N/S we put in already is to make it easier to mix around the peritoneal region...
But i guess I have a sense of achievement , cause now i know something special other ppl (who are even very senior) dun really know... I think i am slowly but surely improving. And now i always make it a point to go for my break and go home on time.. cause work is just work... but off course i love my job just as much...!!!
Today will going out to celebrate one of my colleague (shirley) birthday... Quite excited . i think i want to bring a camera to take lots of pictures...
~ Me ~
Name; Jolyn Choo
Age: 19 years
Birthday: December 30
School: Nanyang Poly SHS Nursing Year 3
Place of Work: SGH
CCA: NYP TKd, Geo Council, CSC
~ Loves ~
- rainbows
- smiles on ppl's faces
- food!
- surprises!
- letters
- watching stars at night
- lilies
- tv
~ Loathes ~
- cockroaches
- heights
- backstabbers
- boredom (nothing to do)
~ Wishlist ~
- to be a great nurse
- to have a happy and healthy family
- to be contented and be able to enjoy simple pleasures of life
- to see a rainbow
- lots of food everyday
- to save more money to buy clothes
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