Tuesday, November 21 MeMORIES>I finally did what i wanted to do for a long time , just that i have been procrastinating which seems to be the in thing for me nowadays which is to assemble all my photos into a large humungous photo album... I finally managed to get it 3/4 filled but there is much more to fill up. I guess i should have done it much sooner, considering the fact that i bought this photo album way back when i was in year 3... Hehe... but suddenly feel so exciting to fill it up with pictures. I can tell i have really changed... well... ahem dunno how to explain...
I used to hate taking pictures cause i had this sort of inferiority complex... I always thought i look awful in pictures. Up to now I still look a bit shy and unnatural in pictures but i guess its much better... Then when i was fixing all the pictures together i realised there were certain points in my life where there were only one or 2 pictures like in secondary school and i wish i could relive my memories thru the pictures but the memories will forever be memories in my head until i get amnesia and die...I only started to take alot of pictures when i met up with jacq, even and chan cause they are really into taking pictures...
Right now I feel so excited to fill up my photo album and maybe another and another with memories i can go over on happy or sad experiences... so whether we look horrible or good i think its good to keep our memories as photos (specifically). I shall not ponder over the lost memories of the past but strive to create more memories from now on.
Now whats the next thing i should do... pick up my knitting now perhaps... # posted by Jolyn |
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Steamboat outing on 15/11/06 with poly mates>
TROUBLED THOUGHTS>Yesterday morning was sunday. Although i was sick i still sat up in bed and thought of going church. Then I thought about my cell group... How sometimes i feel tired to see them and try to think of excuses why i cannot come for so long. why i have been missing in action... 90 percent of the time they are not excuses , but its tiring to say them and i guess its tiring for them too...
Now that i think about it I am actually not a very strong christian after all.. i sort of forgot the feeling of it also... Maybe my presence there will only hinder them to go towards their great aim, towars greater world missions and evangelism. i I think they dun need a luke warm and sometimes not sure of own faith christian...That was a main reason why i never got baptised , cause i know a time like this would come when i really question my faith. maybe it could not go thru the test of time...Maybe i am not a good person . i dun have that feel... I never had the feel of lifting my hands up when worshipping god... i seem so numb and immune to things around me.. I have become so hard hearted, so inhumane. I seemed to have swallowed any displeasure , any sadness any bitterness i see and just treat it as normal...
Is this the life i want... I think i am still very confused about this life of mine...
Monday, November 20 SICK>I'm sick today... have stomach flu or whatever. Its something like food poisoning with vomiting and diarrheoa. i used to wonder which is worse. Constipation or diarrhoea. Now I know its definately diarrhoea... and it does not help if their is vomiting to compliment it. Now no matter what delicious food u put in front of me i simply have no apetite. I was supposed to go for my aunty's birthday celebration but i simply feel so weak and have no apetite. Its a good thing i am off today and tomorrow...
Yesterday i was very energetic going to work. It was a rather relaxing day and i even had time to go for my tea break and dinner... But after dinner i was doing tube feeding for one of my patients then suddenly i felt a bit uncomfortable, like a sort of queezy feelings in my arms and legs. i stopped my work for a while and all i could think was to go out and get a seat... Suddenly everything in front of me was all black .. But i seemed to hear my surrounding noises better. In the end i passed out on my seniors's armsIt was simply too tiring to try to keep awake. But i could hear my senior's voice saying they wanted to do blood sugar on me and give me glucose drink but after that i sort of woke up and started vomiting my whole dinner, so it definately has no problme with me not eating anything. In the end they measured my blood pressure and it was only 50/25. They brought me to the single room and gave me some water to rinse my mouth and rest for a while... After that although i was better but i still felt very tired and my brain felt over exerted. I think its due to lack of oxygen... But i really have no idea why this happened. It could be the food that i ate at marina bay 2 days before that causes food poisoning but i dun think it causes fainting.
But its true that when are sick u feel more emotional and sometimes want some attention. So i will try to be more attentive to my patients though they sometimes irritate the hell out of me... hehe... I was thinking it would be so nice if there was someone to take care and love me when i am sick or in health... haha... i sound pathethic maybe...but i guess its ok to show my weak side sometimes... Its also true when they say hearing is the last thing that goes off even when u are in coma u can still hear very well but u can't seem to move ur body so i will try to be more gentle to my coma patients cause they definately know what i am doing. haha
And yesterday i am very happy cause i got a compliment from one of my patient family members. I told her i am only 5 months old as a staff nurse and she said she could not tell she said i look as if i have been working for a year and more. Means to say I am good at my work..
Ok i think i am going to get some sleep. Seems like all i do when i am sick is sleep,watch tv and drink some thin fluids and go toilet to answer nature call +++ # posted by Jolyn |
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Saturday, November 18 >Today is my off day and a day after my sleeping day which was after my 3 days of night shift... it has been my second round of night shift and I can gladly say I am getting used to it... I am not really that tired as during my first round... This round has also been better cause I am together with nice ppl like Wan Ru... She is sooo sisterly and is always willing to help around. After our last night together we went off together to eat breakfast. I think we sort of make a good combination for night shift.
I really thank god that all of my 3 days night shift was quite peaceful... First night there were admissions, second night their was a death. Third night their were massive blood transfusions and blood taking.
Today will be going out with tuna . We still have not really planned what to do.,.. only that evening time we want to go and eat steamboat....Kavi and Fiona might be joining along too...
Tuesday, November 14 NICE OUTING>Yesterday was a very fun filled day for me. I went to malaysia , desaru for a outing with my ward mates.... It was so enjoyable because there was Guan Yi, Shirley, jolene and Giam... some of my colleagues even went after their last night shift which i guess was very tiring...Anyways it was an outing which I was looking forward to for the past few weeks and I am happy that it came though not so happy it passed so fast.It was truly a very happy time for bonding.
Sunday, November 5 RECOVER>I have been recovering from my night shift recently. Thank God there was a off day for me to recover from my lack of sleep... Night shift was pretty nice and sometime it can get peaceful although sometimes call bells can kill. I actually had the feeling like i can actually check on my patients in the night and communicate with them if they are not sleeping... Like I have actually done a job as a nurse... Nursing is not supposed to be task orientated but thats how we make it to be... We sometime should just stop in our tracks and ask how our patients feel or lend a listening ear if we do have the time...
Today went out with Fiona for a belated birthday celebration of hers... After so many years she is still the sort of friend that u can talk about anything under the sun. Things are going pretty well for her i guess... Today also went for a belated birthday celebration for my mum... We went to eat Sakura... Now i feel sooo full... Tomrrow will try going for morning service before going for work tomorrow... All ready and fresh... hehe... not really... there is always room for more off...
Wednesday, November 1 ISaiah 40: 28 -31>Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but thos who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
NIGHT SHIFT JITTERS>Tonight is my first night as a staff nurse and i am feeling quite nervous... So many what ifs... but i know i can... I think I will take a little nap later on before going to work...
Yesterday I went out with Shirley and we went to eat Fish and Co... Its really nice... I ate the set meal with the fish and chips... delicious... After that we walked around and i made those stickers with my name on them that i can stick onto my pen... The sticker has pictures of the Aristocats... I made 5 shetts for me and 5 sheets for Jolene... cause to me Jolene is like my angel... that i really treasure for bringing joy into my life.
After that went out with my brother and i bought a new phone... and after that got a nice dress for myself before going back home... i feel so broke now... still have to give my mum her monthly allowance... eeks... hehe
~ Me ~
Name; Jolyn Choo
Age: 19 years
Birthday: December 30
School: Nanyang Poly SHS Nursing Year 3
Place of Work: SGH
CCA: NYP TKd, Geo Council, CSC
~ Loves ~
- rainbows
- smiles on ppl's faces
- food!
- surprises!
- letters
- watching stars at night
- lilies
- tv
~ Loathes ~
- cockroaches
- heights
- backstabbers
- boredom (nothing to do)
~ Wishlist ~
- to be a great nurse
- to have a happy and healthy family
- to be contented and be able to enjoy simple pleasures of life
- to see a rainbow
- lots of food everyday
- to save more money to buy clothes
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