I just woke up from a 2 hour nap and so far this has been the most refreshing rest I have gotten in a long time... Maybe the short break from work has done me good. it does not mean every day i have gone out making myself so exhauseted... I mean i did go out quite often but I also spent some times at home resting... I guess thats what I needed... I realise i cannot go on in life without surrendering everything to the one up there who is in control... Cause i have been stubbornly holding on refusing to let him take control...
This morning I went for service but i decided not to go for cell cause I feel I dun quite fit into cell group anymore.. probably I think too much.. i dunno. i just feel guitly that I am not able to give them my time, any committment of mine... Week after week I tell them the same old excuse that i cannot make it cause I have work... Btw its a fact... My work has eaten up on my spiritual life (and not only spiritual life for that matter). I dunno , maybe I will go back to my cell group the next time... I wonder how they are. i wonder if they remember me...
But sitting into the church service did do me good.. suddenly i felt surrounded by god's presence, by god's ppl. Suddenly i felt safe. And today after many days I finally picked up my bible to do my quiet time.,.. And i found a passage that suits my inner being... About just surrendering everything to God and casting all your cares on him cause he cares for you.In this way we can remain peaceful even if we are in life's tossed sea.We just have to learn to let go and let God take control...
Tomorrow will be morning shift. I think I will be in charge of 12 patients tomorrow but suddenly i dun feel scared anymore... Just surrender all my worries to him and do my best. After that I planned a outing with my colleagues to sing k box... then they can hear my melodious voice... Hehe!!!
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