Trying to stuff facts into my puny little brain in this brain scorching hot hot weather... Now reading up on behaviour modification. Its a really interesting topic but the theory part takes away the fun from learning... thats what i think, maybe i am not a really theory person.
Exams are just next week and I only just started studying like ... today. But its ok, whats most important is to study with understanding (yeah sayang, let me try to pat and console myself... hehe).
Over weekend went to ntu to support nyp in the inter varsity competition for pattern teams and sparring. However i am more interested in sparring.. hehe... my friend tuna was sparring and she won her opponent 7-1 I think... really very proud of her and lok. Cause i know they really put in alot of effort in training. I Really like tkd but dun like the feeling of being in the club, so much politics (what should i call it)... Its not only me who feels like this. Quite a few others (in fact, alot of others) have told me the same thing. Sometimes i feel like such a redundant person there. If u can't be in the "in group" you are an extra... and they dun care for ur welfare at all... Haiz. dun feel like saying already... Being there sometimes sucks the spirit out of me... Should I blame myself for being the way I am or is there some major problem with the club itself. Sometimes i really admire Lok and Tuna cause they always had each other throughout. Suffer together, be together... Work hard together, achieve a goal together. For me I joined together with kavi and alot of other ppl but they all left (I think mostly due to same reason). I dun blame them for leaving also cause alot of time i have wanted to. So i have come to a stage where i drag my feet there. But i still love to spar and i still love tkd... I really really do.
Jenny was right in one thing, no matter what, ppl are very important whether in taekwondo or nursing or any job. If u got supportive ppl, no matter how difficult the job it will still be a joy. If the ppl dun give a damn abt u, it will take lots of internal strength and be quite draining even if its a simple job. I hope in my job i dun reach a point when i drag myself to work everyday.
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