This week is my week in OT. I experienced alot and saw alot although its only my first day here... I dun want to make any quick judgement but just learn as much as I can. I feel as if I am deprived of communication with ppl, especially patients... Its just a fast paced environment very different from the wards... task orientated, always on your feet...
I just went out to the supermarket to buy some things but i suddenly felt like sitting down and looking at the ppl walking on by. Sometimes i just feel like lying back and not continuing on this journey, sometimes i feel tired, sometimes i feel like i am always pushing myself too hard. I am like alot of ppl in this world, but i am only one of the many. Will anyone care... I will just have to continue my journey tomorrow and it will seem as if the thought never came to my mind, but it just comes and goes... Whatever it is, life still goes on... Time wun stop for me, I just have to go along with it... I am not depressed, I am just a normal person that will want to stop and reflect and laze around once in a while. Thats why I am human...
Talking about humans, i find it very fascinating how we are such emotional being yet when we are sitting on the operating table, it seems we are no better than pigs. The whole time when i was obseving the operation, i felt sad that this human was being poked and cut here and there but it sort of reminded me of the butcher cutting meat at the market... hehe... sounds a bit sadistic but its true...
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